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Another Regret

I am beginning to regret one of my decisions again.

I’m regretting the fact that I didn’t take a lab coats and enrolled up in the Medical Technology course in college, as my mother did.

A recent news about my father’s health made me realize that this is probably the biggest decision that I regret. I didn’t become a nurse, or a doctor, or even a Lab Technician… anything related to the medical field that could probably help my parents in the long run. Stupid of me. ~_~

But, I do realize that it’s too late to do that now. I’d have to make with what I have right now and help whatever I can. My sister, God bless her, is an awesome nurse… perhaps one of the best nurses that her hospital has. I am confident that she can help my parents better than I can.

I am not as confident as my sister is, though. What can a librarian do to help in a person’s health? Sometimes I even think that my work seems so insignificant that if I left or quit in my current job, everything would be just the same.

Haiz. Or perhaps I am thinking too negatively.

Now is not the time to be negative. I have to do what I can to help my parents, however little it may seem. Maybe as a librarian, I can do research and find out more about how to take care of my parents. Yes, perhaps that’s the thing I can do…

0 Comment(s) - What do you think?  Posted by ZenkX - January 25, 2012 at 9:58 am

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Zenkx Against Cyberbullying

Man, the internet today is both an awesome and annoying thing, specially when it comes to things like bullying. ~_~

Just recently, I saw an episode of “If You Really Knew Me”, which addresses the modern concerns of High School students in the US, specially when it comes to “stereotyping”, where in students are seemingly grouped according to what the school society thinks them to be. They can be jocks, cheerleaders, nerds, outcasts, etc.

One of the thing that hit me during that show was about cyberbullying, or abusing someone’s well-being through digital means like texting, or through posts in FaceBook, MySpace or in their own personal blogs.

I find it really interesting and … disturbing, to think that these teenagers are practically ruining someone’s life by the words they say through the use of the InterNet and cellphones.

There was once a time when I was bullied in high school… way before texting was a fad. My friends were what they called nerds or outcasts, but I loved them, not because they are strange or anything, but because they were genuinely fun and really cool. My best friend, Joyce has been my friend since high school. And we had went through a lot of shit together from the bullies. We had chairs and books thrown at us. Joyce, particularly, being the smartest, was always pressured into doing someone else’s homework. She was called thin, and I was called weirdo. I had the biggest breasts in class, and they often picked at me because of it. Some went too far as to date me just to touch my breast for a bet.

I had… a bad time in high school, but it was Joyce, and my other friends, Beth, Juddee, Mary Jane, Joseph Ickx and Ericco who made me strong enough to not let a blade touch my wrist, because it would make them sad. When we were bullied, Beth would defend us, being a black belter in karate, and when we got so angry we would go out and hang at the mall, or sometimes in my house, where we would talk about things. It… made me really appreciate them and love them.

But now… it’s just scary. You don’t need physical contact just to be bullied by someone. Heck, you could be in the same school but not know each other until someone posts something awful about you.

I’ve heard about news of teenagers killing themselves because someone made an awful rumor about them… like them being gay, or fat, or weird, or being falsely accused of being something that they are not. As one who went through that ordeal and was able to not do it, I just wish that this kind of thing would stop happening. Life is too fun, and great and awesome, to be tainted by such false accusations. I wish kids who went through the same, and probably worse, scenario like mine would have the strength to stand up, and know that just because they called you something, doesn’t mean you have to be.

Watching all this… it is making me regret that I didn’t look into counselor careers or get a master degree in psychology. I just wish there was something I could do to make teenagers and people learn something about cyberbullying, and how it’s affecting people not just in schools, but even outside of it like in workplaces. ~_~

0 Comment(s) - What do you think?  Posted by ZenkX - July 16, 2011 at 8:50 pm

Categories: 2011, adulthood, discrimination, dreams, health, random, rants, regret, relationships, stupidity, technology, writings   Tags: , , , , , , ,

Of Seether and Childhood regrets

Okay, I’m home. XD

Actually, it’s been a couple of hours since I’ve been home, but it’s only now that I’m able to use the computer.

Anyway, recently, my friend Jam posted a link on my Facebook site about a new remake that Seether made. They recently made a remake of Wham/ George Micheal’s song called “Careless Whisper”. I’m listening to it right now, and I am just LOVIN’ IT! It’s pretty cool, hearing the sax solo from the previous versions converted into Electric guitar, and it still sounds the same. Honestly, I am starting to regret not taking guitar lessons from my brother, or stopping the piano lessons I had when I was a kid.

I can’t seem to remember why I stopped taking piano lessons. I think I got bored. My Teacher then was very strict, and my fingers sucked when it comes to pressing the right keys on the piano (you should see it on a keyboard though hahaha!). Oh, not to mention there was a time the cover of the keyboard feel on my hands and squished them. I guess I got traumatized after that.

Oh, and I had guitar lessons from my bestfriend too, but I didn’t have the patience to learn it though. Yeah, I suck as a music student.

Back to Seether, I think a lot of bands should do the same thing… you know, make remakes that are appropriate for their genre. Metallica did an awesome job with Bob Seger’s Turn The Page, and even Marilyn Manson did a good job remaking the Eurythmics’ song Sweet Dreams (though its a bit darker than Annie Lennox’s version). I can’t say the same thing with Limp Bizkit’s version of Behind Blue Eyes… a lot of other people loved it, but for some reason, I can’t seem to like it as much as they do. I mean, yeah, the lyrics are good, but I don’t know, I guess Fred Durst’s voice wasn’t cut out for ballads like that.

Anyway, back to the original topic, Seether’s Careless Whisper remake is awesome. I would’ve wanted to play it over in my office, but I doubt the people there would welcome such loud music, specially since I’m working in a Library. XD

Time to download it and put in my MP3 player.

0 Comment(s) - What do you think?  Posted by ZenkX - May 27, 2009 at 7:55 pm

Categories: childhood, marilyn manson, metallica, music, music remakes, regret, seether   Tags:

Of Seether and Childhood regrets

Okay, I’m home. XD

Actually, it’s been a couple of hours since I’ve been home, but it’s only now that I’m able to use the computer.

Anyway, recently, my friend Jam posted a link on my Facebook site about a new remake that Seether made. They recently made a remake of Wham/ George Micheal’s song called “Careless Whisper”. I’m listening to it right now, and I am just LOVIN’ IT! It’s pretty cool, hearing the sax solo from the previous versions converted into Electric guitar, and it still sounds the same. Honestly, I am starting to regret not taking guitar lessons from my brother, or stopping the piano lessons I had when I was a kid.

I can’t seem to remember why I stopped taking piano lessons. I think I got bored. My Teacher then was very strict, and my fingers sucked when it comes to pressing the right keys on the piano (you should see it on a keyboard though hahaha!). Oh, not to mention there was a time the cover of the keyboard feel on my hands and squished them. I guess I got traumatized after that.

Oh, and I had guitar lessons from my bestfriend too, but I didn’t have the patience to learn it though. Yeah, I suck as a music student.

Back to Seether, I think a lot of bands should do the same thing… you know, make remakes that are appropriate for their genre. Metallica did an awesome job with Bob Seger’s Turn The Page, and even Marilyn Manson did a good job remaking the Eurythmics’ song Sweet Dreams (though its a bit darker than Annie Lennox’s version). I can’t say the same thing with Limp Bizkit’s version of Behind Blue Eyes… a lot of other people loved it, but for some reason, I can’t seem to like it as much as they do. I mean, yeah, the lyrics are good, but I don’t know, I guess Fred Durst’s voice wasn’t cut out for ballads like that.

Anyway, back to the original topic, Seether’s Careless Whisper remake is awesome. I would’ve wanted to play it over in my office, but I doubt the people there would welcome such loud music, specially since I’m working in a Library. XD

Time to download it and put in my MP3 player.

0 Comment(s) - What do you think?  Posted by ZenkX - at 11:55 am

Categories: childhood, marilyn manson, metallica, music, music remakes, regret, seether   Tags:

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