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Of Dresses and Sewing Machines

All this Veil Poi-making obsession is making me want to get a Sewing machine…

But I probably think that that’s not all, maybe it’s the fact that I need to make my own cheap plus size dresses to fit me.

I just came from the mall today, and I was looking around for a nice dress (because, quite honestly, I’m getting a little older, and I probably need a make-over to a more grown-up look), but when I find the right kind of dress I want, it ends up being worth P1,000.00.

It’s seriously, seriously annoying. It’s like they’re saying that since I’m bigger, they’re going to charge me more for every frickin’ inch of cloth used in dresses. ~_~

Not to mention that it’s so unfair that people a lot bigger than me would opt to wear shorts or jeans, where as there are over a hundred stores for skinny-figured people, and they charge it at just half the price.

I have nothing against skinny people, and I know for a fact that I do need to exercise to lose some weight. But even if I exercise, I don’t think I’ll be as thin because I have big bones.

It kind of makes me sort of embarrassed for my full-figured sisters. Here we are, in the age where women can be pretty and feminine without society’s scorn, and yet we can’t seem to find the right dress to make us feel beautiful.

I don’t know. Maybe it’s just me being a cheapskate.

But I still want a sewing machine. XD

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Dancing Envy And Double Standards

Someday, I want to be this brilliant in Tribal Fusion bellydancing.

If only I had some box converter so I can convert some of her YouTube videos into my television. ~_~

Unfortunately, as much as I love her dancing, society’s penchant for perfection continues to piss me off. Apparently, I’d be considered a freak if I tried to dance this kind of choreography when I am 80 pounds overweight.

Well, that sucks. I didn’t know you were supposed to have a specific bodily figure to bellydance. ~_~

I’ve been reading around the InterNet lately. Apparently, most “fluffy” bellydancers focus more on Egyptian-style bellydancing rather than Tribal Fusion style bellydancing. Which is fine for me. It’s just that there are way too many people who bring these bellydancers down by calling them “fat” or “disgusting”.

Seriously? Since when has dancing for pure enjoyment become disgusting?

Anyway, I really hate these kind of double standards. It’s annoying. It’s like saying you can go and do bellydance when you’ve shed some pounds and become skinny. Which is a total opposite of what belly dancing is all about. Bellydance is all about acceptance, and liking your body no matter what the shape.

Argh. Society sucks sometimes. Honestly. Remind me to find my old bellydance belt and dance my heart out while rising my middle finger to the people who give me disgusted looks. >:(

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The Fat Buddha “Insult”

Before I post stories about my Marinduque Holy Week, I came across a little epiphany while watching a movie while I was processing my bank account to get money for the trip (kinda makes me wish I had check city cash advances… the line was so long at that time ~_~). The movie was called “Necessary Roughness”, and it starred Scott Bakula and Sinbad way back in 1991.

Anyway, even though I wasn’t really paying attention to the movie, but I do remember one part where they insulted one guy as a “Fat Buddha”. Being a chubby person myself, it kind of made me think a little.

Is being called a “Fat Buddha” really an insult?

The way I see it, it’s not.

Look at it this way. The person calling you a “fat buddha” is, for one thing, stupid and foolish. If they had studied religion and philosophy, they would know that the “fat buddha” is not actually the real Buddha. The real Buddha was named Siddharta Gautama, a young man from India who attained enlightenment by meditation, and the founder of Buddhism. His religious icon is that of a young man, sitting in a Lotus Pose (yeah, I know my Yoga XD). Buddha is also given to several other people, because the name itself means “enlightened one”.

Second, the “fat buddha” term is mistaken… it’s called a Budai. It’s Chinese diety. Buddha is, of course, the founder of Buddism, while Budai, is one of the deities of the Chinese Zen. He is also included in the Buddist teachings, but he is more known as “The Laughing Buddha” rather than just “Buddha”.

And finally, Budai, even though his appearance is that of a bald, short and fat man, is often times called the representation of contentment and enlightenment. He did not care if the world made fun of his belly or his looks. He is laughing because he is content of his life. He helped the poor and the destitute, and he understood the ways of the world. Society’s view of physical appearances didn’t matter to him. He’s laughing because he is content and happy with life and his life’s work. He is enlightened and happy… hence the name “Laughing Buddha”.

So yeah, the next time someone calls you a “Fat Buddha”, don’t be afraid to say, “Hey! Thank you!”. Why? Because it means you are enlightened. That you are happy and content with what you are, and with what you do, and what you look like. Consider it as a compliment. That ought to throw your enemy in loop. They’d go, “Why the heck is this guy thanking me when I insulted him?”. And you, having read and learned this, would just smile, knowing that the person who insulted you had just called you a happy and content “Enlightened One”. ^_^

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ZenkX’s “Weight Loss” Journal: Day 3

Yup, me and my mum are now undergoing a battle with my moderate obesity. ~_~”

This is actually my third day of my supposed medication, even though this is my first day blogging about it. Maybe it’s because  was pretty shy that even though I advocate fat acceptance, I am now going through a bit of dieting and medication for it. But I guess it’s a pretty good idea to blog about this journey of mine, so that people can at least get a glimpse of how hard it is, and what they’re up against once they decide on doing… well, what I’m going through right now. XD

Actually, I am a bit happy that I’m doing this. Ever since my mother and sister has been diagnosed with diabetes, I’ve been pretty scared of following their footsteps. My mom takes insulin injections nowadays, and it scares me everytime I have to inject her, or everytime I watch her inject herself. I really don’t want to end up like that, and I really want to show my mom that I can do this,so that she can follow my lead and live a healthy lifestyle herself.

Anyway, to start, it was my cousin Julius who introduced me to Herbalife, the diet/ supplements I’m using right now. I am using their Nutritional Shake, Herbal Tea Concentrate, Ready Herbal Aloe and Fiber Capsules. The shake is meant to be taken as my replacement meal for breakfast and dinner. The Tea for my morning drink (since it might keep me awake for hours XD), the aloe is taken before the shake, and the capsules are taken 3 times a day (2 capsules).

During my first day, it started out great. The shake was Berry flavored, so tasted great with fruits I included. I guess it acted like an appetite suppressant as well, because I didn’t get hungry quite as often. It was a little sweet from the fruits I included, but there’s no added sugar to the shake so it’s good to prevent my diabetes from triggering. It was the same as yesterday (my second day), although I noticed I sweated more than I used to. Julius said it was the way that the fat and the toxins in my body gets removed from system, as well as having to go to the bathroom more often than I used to. The sweating felt great, and it makes me drink more water than I usually do.

However, it’s my third day today, and I guess the psychological aspect of dieting is setting in. Although I still took the shake, my body is starting to react to the fact that there’e no food coming in through my mouth. I’m starting to feel a little agitated about it, since I can’t eat my usual Hotsilog (hotdog, sinangag rice and egg (itlog XD) breakfast, which is just as filling as the shake, albeit more calories. This doesn’t mean that I’m quitting though, I’m just getting new to the prospect of not being able to eat rice. Yesterday, I passed by a barbeque stall and all the scents pretty much made me crave for it, but I feel like this is a psychological battle, so I have to channel my cravings into something else. Right now, I’m craving for some chocolate cookies, and I’m channeling my cravings by blogging instead (which probably mean I’m going to be more talkative the next few days). Bear with me, people. XD

Julius said that the first 3 days of the Herbalife program is the most critical, since my physical body and psychological state will be somewhat in turmoil from the dieting and medication. He will be doing some measurements on my tonight after work, to see if there has been any changes. He also said that the changes might be small, but if I keep going at it, I can get big results (hopefully XD).

As a base line for my so-called weight loss journey, he measured me the first day I started the program. I’ll be posting them here as well, so that you readers (as well as myself) can keep track of my changes. XD

WEIGHT: 180 lbs. (sheeesh ~_~”)
CHEST: 112 cm.
WAIST: 113 cm.
HIPS: 105 cm.
ARMS: 34 cm.
THIGHS: 58 cm.

Yep, as you can see from my measurements, I’m a big, BIG woman. XD

I’ll be posting Julius’ measurements tonight, so hopefully there can be some change. It might be small, but any change would be better than having no change at all. Hope you guys can stay tuned for that. ^_^v

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A Chubby Shopper’s Woes

It’s a fabolous blouse isn’t it? Unfortunately, I bought a similar blouse a couple of days ago.

I was shopping at a local mall here, when I spotted the same looking blouse at one of the stores here. And stupid me, I didn’t look at the store’s logo. ~_~

As I was about to bring the blouse to the cashier, one of the clerks said, “Would you like to see some of our prenatal vitamins here, Ma’am? We’ve having a discount.” And that’s when I realized that I was actually in a maternity clothing store. XD

Yeah, a lot people often make that mistake about me, and also my sister. Apparently, there’s no physical difference between being pregnant and being fluffy nowadays. Sheesh. I guess my gut really IS that big, that people tend to think that I’m pregnant. Sometimes, I even buy clothes at that I didn’t know belong in a preggy figure. I don’t know whether to be amused or insulted… but I think I’m leaning more to amused. XD

But I guess it’s better that I’m a chubby woman than a chubby man. At least people won’t make fun of my man-gut. Hahaha!

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My New Chubby Idols

Look out, fellow big people, we got some new idols coming through!

Ever since Musician Missy Elliot lost weight through exercise and diet supplements, chubby girls (such as myself) have been looking for another celebrity who could share our pain and our situation.

Enter Actresses Mo’nique and Gabourey Sidibe.

In the film Precious, the two actresses portray a mother and daughter, respectively. Mo’nique, a Hollywood veteran, dramatically changed her looks and her attitude for the movie. Commonly bright, happy and an excellent comedienne who touched the lives of different types of women, Mo’Nique took on the role of harsh, brash and mean Mary Jones, while Sidibe portray the shy, insecure and abused Claireece “Precious” Jones.

The film was unfortunately not released here in the Philippines, however, in the recent Academy Awards, the film garnered 6 nominations, having won 2 for the Best Supporting Actress (Mo’Nique) and Best Writing (Adapted Screenplay). Sidibe received a nomination at the same Awards for Best Actress. Not bad for a chubby girl who skipped school to audition for a part in the movie, and a woman who used to be phone sex operator (yes, Mo’Nique’s husky tones once seduced men on the phone. XD)

I personally believe that Mo’Nique, though not as huge as an actress as… let’s say, Angelina Jolie, she is still worth idolizing. She is a source of inspiration for chubby women such as myself, and has touched the lives of so many with her wit and humor.

It’s just too bad that Precious wasn’t released here. It’s such a strikingly great movie, that a lot of women here in the Philippines could also relate to.

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Ruby Rodriguez on the Biggest Loser…?

Ok, I hate to admit it, but I am a HUGE couch potato. A lot of people consider it as a bad thing, but sometimes it’s still gives me some pretty good topics to think about.

For instance, I was watching TV when I saw Filipina celebrity, Ruby Rodriguez, in a commercial for The Biggest Loser Asia. It turns out she applied in the contest, and she aims to be able to lose weight with the help of the program.

Now, ever since I was a child, I have been a huge fan of Ruby. My family watches “Eat Bulaga” all the time, even until now, and nothing seems to light up the screen like Ruby’s smile. Even with all those sexy dancers around, it was Ruby’s smile and outgoing personality that captured me. Even when she’s doing movies, her emotions show up so wonderfully and her humor is amazing. And when I grew up and became the fluffy person that I am, I looked up to her, because she embodied what a fluffy person ought to be… a smiling, happy-go-lucky human who thinks nothing about what society tells her about her weight.

Seeing her on the auditions of the Biggest Loser made me think, “What ever happened to the celebrity I idolized? Why does she want to lose weight?” I would’ve understood her if she had some sort of medical condition, like Missy Elliot, who made a drastic weight loss that shocked the music business because of health issues. But as I listened to the commercial, it turns out that one of her reasons was because of vanity. She is a celebrity, and yet people criticize her and bully her because she’s fat.

Here’s a short interview of Ruby Rodriguez during her audition on the Biggest Loser Asia:

This is why I hate society sometimes. They just want everyone to be damn perfect. Everyone aims to be something beautiful, that they end up doing all these weird and painful things just to get it. Nose lift, boob lifts, stomach stapling… for me, it’s just so weird. God gave us these bodies, who are we to change the blessings that He gave us? I’m fat too, and I know someday that I’ll have to exercise as well once I get health problems, but I will most definetely NOT exercise because “someone told me to start losing weight because it’s ugly to be fat”.

I believe Ms. Ruby is a wonderful person, and she’s a beautiful woman, it’s just that people can’t seem to overlook the fact that she’s fluffy. I get the same thing too. The “oh-you’re-so-pretty-but-you’re-just-so-fat” comments. Normally, I turn a deaf ear on those comments (and believe me when I say I get it a lot, specially from my mother), but when you’re a celebrity, it’s pretty hard to ignore. I feel Ms. Rodriguez’ pain with all the criticism, and I understand why she would want to join the Biggest Loser. I just wish that she could read this so I could tell her that she shouldn’t join the Biggest Loser just because people bully her and criticize her of her weight. She should join the contest because she wants to be healthier, take care of her body and get rid of all her health issues. I’m sure a lot of fluffy persons like me would idolized her more if said something like that.

In the words of Jonathan Ian Mathers (creator of Neurotically Yours), “F**k society and their obsession with idealistic beauty!”. People should be happy with what they’ve got, it’s what God gave them, society’s view on vanity be damned. God gave people life. I, for one, will not waste it on trying be something I’m not . If God has willed me to die a cholesterol-induced death, then so be it!

Anyway, to Ms. Ruby Rodriguez, idol of fluffy Filipinas everywhere, if she does get into the Biggest Loser, I hope she does well and gets healthy. And to all the people who criticized her, made fun of her and bullied her (and all fluffy people), go stuff yourself with celery sticks, you perfectionist pricks! ~_~

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Ruby Rodriguez on the Biggest Loser…?

Ok, I hate to admit it, but I am a HUGE couch potato. A lot of people consider it as a bad thing, but sometimes it’s still gives me some pretty good topics to think about.

For instance, I was watching TV when I saw Filipina celebrity, Ruby Rodriguez, in a commercial for The Biggest Loser Asia. It turns out she applied in the contest, and she aims to be able to lose weight with the help of the program.

Now, ever since I was a child, I have been a huge fan of Ruby. My family watches “Eat Bulaga” all the time, even until now, and nothing seems to light up the screen like Ruby’s smile. Even with all those sexy dancers around, it was Ruby’s smile and outgoing personality that captured me. Even when she’s doing movies, her emotions show up so wonderfully and her humor is amazing. And when I grew up and became the fluffy person that I am, I looked up to her, because she embodied what a fluffy person ought to be… a smiling, happy-go-lucky human who thinks nothing about what society tells her about her weight.

Seeing her on the auditions of the Biggest Loser made me think, “What ever happened to the celebrity I idolized? Why does she want to lose weight?” I would’ve understood her if she had some sort of medical condition, like Missy Elliot, who made a drastic weight loss that shocked the music business because of health issues. But as I listened to the commercial, it turns out that one of her reasons was because of vanity. She is a celebrity, and yet people criticize her and bully her because she’s fat.

Here’s a short interview of Ruby Rodriguez during her audition on the Biggest Loser Asia:

[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DcFf5gOITKY&hl=en_US&fs=1&]

This is why I hate society sometimes. They just want everyone to be damn perfect. Everyone aims to be something beautiful, that they end up doing all these weird and painful things just to get it. Nose lift, boob lifts, stomach stapling… for me, it’s just so weird. God gave us these bodies, who are we to change the blessings that He gave us? I’m fat too, and I know someday that I’ll have to exercise as well once I get health problems, but I will most definetely NOT exercise because “someone told me to start losing weight because it’s ugly to be fat”.

I believe Ms. Ruby is a wonderful person, and she’s a beautiful woman, it’s just that people can’t seem to overlook the fact that she’s fluffy. I get the same thing too. The “oh-you’re-so-pretty-but-you’re-just-so-fat” comments. Normally, I turn a deaf ear on those comments (and believe me when I say I get it a lot, specially from my mother), but when you’re a celebrity, it’s pretty hard to ignore. I feel Ms. Rodriguez’ pain with all the criticism, and I understand why she would want to join the Biggest Loser. I just wish that she could read this so I could tell her that she shouldn’t join the Biggest Loser just because people bully her and criticize her of her weight. She should join the contest because she wants to be healthier, take care of her body and get rid of all her health issues. I’m sure a lot of fluffy persons like me would idolized her more if said something like that.

In the words of Jonathan Ian Mathers (creator of Neurotically Yours), “F**k society and their obsession with idealistic beauty!”. People should be happy with what they’ve got, it’s what God gave them, society’s view on vanity be damned. God gave people life. I, for one, will not waste it on trying be something I’m not . If God has willed me to die a cholesterol-induced death, then so be it!

Anyway, to Ms. Ruby Rodriguez, idol of fluffy Filipinas everywhere, if she does get into the Biggest Loser, I hope she does well and gets healthy. And to all the people who criticized her, made fun of her and bullied her (and all fluffy people), go stuff yourself with celery sticks, you perfectionist pricks! ~_~

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The Bellydance Obsession Returns

From Cellphone Photos
Yep, my obsession with belly dance returns.

It returned after I went to a local mall and saw a couple of Neena and Veena Instructional VCDs on sale (will take a picture of it once I get my Camera Phone fixed XD). I bought a couple of them (P100 a CD… whatta bargain!), and I’m hoping to be able to use it instead of letting it rot in my cabinet. Hahaha! It’s one of the hardest things about sharing your room with someone.

Anyway, after buying the VCDs, my obsession once again fixated on the Snakecharmer Lady, Rachel Brice. Sheesh, what I wouldn’t give to be able to move like her… what I wouldn’t give to have a body like hers, too. >_< Darn our vanity obsessed society. I really have no issues with bellydancing in public. The only issue I have when I dance are the silly, narrow-minded people who think that fluffy girls like me are not supposed to bellydance because it’ll cause our wobbly bits to jiggle. Just how silly and stupid is that? Quite frankly, if I were to choose between a thin bellydancer like Sonia or a fluffy girl like Hiba , I think I’d rather go for Hiba. No offense to Sonia fans, but sometimes, I feel like she’s dancing for the sake of the choreography rather than the music.

Even the Bellydance Superstars have an issue like this. I love them to bits, but still, one fluffy person can’t help but feel insecurity after watching them because all of them are so thin. They should have fluffy girls like Hiba dance with them once in a while. Also, it doesn’t help that previous “meaty” members of theirs are not on tour with them, like Bozenka and Dondi.

Anyway, I’ll be spending some time with these VCDs, plus I was able to buy this awesome MP3 player that straps to my arm. Heehee… time to take out my old bellydance coin belt!

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The Bellydance Obsession Returns

From Cellphone Photos
Yep, my obsession with belly dance returns.

It returned after I went to a local mall and saw a couple of Neena and Veena Instructional VCDs on sale (will take a picture of it once I get my Camera Phone fixed XD). I bought a couple of them (P100 a CD… whatta bargain!), and I’m hoping to be able to use it instead of letting it rot in my cabinet. Hahaha! It’s one of the hardest things about sharing your room with someone.

Anyway, after buying the VCDs, my obsession once again fixated on the Snakecharmer Lady, Rachel Brice. Sheesh, what I wouldn’t give to be able to move like her… what I wouldn’t give to have a body like hers, too. >_<

Darn our vanity obsessed society.

I really have no issues with bellydancing in public. The only issue I have when I dance are the silly, narrow-minded people who think that fluffy girls like me are not supposed to bellydance because it’ll cause our wobbly bits to jiggle. Just how silly and stupid is that? Quite frankly, if I were to choose between a thin bellydancer like Sonia or a fluffy girl like Hiba , I think I’d rather go for Hiba. No offense to Sonia fans, but sometimes, I feel like she’s dancing for the sake of the choreography rather than the music.

Even the Bellydance Superstars have an issue like this. I love them to bits, but still, one fluffy person can’t help but feel insecurity after watching them because all of them are so thin. They should have fluffy girls like Hiba dance with them once in a while. Also, it doesn’t help that previous “meaty” members of theirs are not on tour with them, like Bozenka and Dondi.

Anyway, I’ll be spending some time with these VCDs, plus I was able to buy this awesome MP3 player that straps to my arm. Heehee… time to take out my old bellydance coin belt!

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