In Loving Memory of Mafia, 2009-2012


And so after two days of being dizzy and unable to breathe due to colds, my grief finally came up to me a few moments ago.

My brother’s dog, Mafia – a cute, chubby, white Askal – was killed in the early hours of Friday, when a school bus hit her during her toilet run.

I was awake when they told me what had happened, but I was too dizzy with fever and unable to breathe due to my colds. I was unable to cry because I was afraid that I wouldn’t be able to breathe due to the colds that was already blocking my airways. I was upset, but I reined my grief in, and went back to bed to make sure I don’t fall over because I was very, very dizzy. But I could hear them outside my room. My brother’s family and my sister were crying.

I heard the discussions, and what I heard made me so sick and dizzy that all I could do was fall unconscious in my bed again. Mafia was run over a school bus, and my mother told one of our helpers to give the dog’s body to one of the pedicab drivers. My mother didn’t know that my brother was in our house at that moment. When my brother finally woke up and found out, he headed to the pedicab driver to take back the body, only to find that it had been chopped up and was about to be turned into a “pulutan”. Mafia’s head was no longer with the body, and all that remained was a plastic bag of some of her “meat”. I blacked out again when the crying started.

When I woke up again, my father was home, and he was telling me to pack some of my stuff so he can take me to their new place, where my mom could heal me. I was very dizzy, but I was able to ride the car and head to my parents’ place and lay down on their bed. My mother healed my fever with some menthol oil, but my colds continued. My dizzyness stopped soon after, and when I was strong and stable enough to walk again, I told my mom about Mafia. She was sad too, but she said that she had no idea that my brother was at our home in Antipolo, and she had no idea that he wanted the dog buried. I couldn’t talk anymore, so I just ate dinner and slept again.

This morning, it was the blessing of my parent’s place, as well as their new store. I helped around a bit, for as long as I wouldn’t get dizzy. I remembered that I have work tomorrow, so I decided to get back here at home.

As I stepped out my cousin’s car, the grief hit me.

I headed directly to our kitchen, where Mafia’s daughter, Chubbilita, was. When I saw her and realizing that the other dog who was supposed to greet me beside her was gone, I made my way to a corner, sat down, and cried hard. Chubbs came near me and laid her head in my lap and whined, like she was saying, “I’m crying for my mom, too.” I cried a lot, and she was whining on my lap, licking my hands and face. I cried for a few minutes there, before heading to the backyard where my brother had buried her. He put three stones on top of the spot, and I had the urge of putting a small figurine of a dog on it, even though I didn’t have one. I offered a small prayer, and went back inside.

But as I was typing this blog, I remembered something from the PAWS website about a Pet Memorial Wall. The Pet Memorial Wall is, obviously, a wall with plaques of pets that have touched the lives of their owners. For a fee of P2,000 (which will be considered as a donation and will be used for the shelter animals), the Center will create a plaque and add it to the wall. I was thinking of adding Mafia’s and my old German Shep, Roval’s name there, since they both touched the lives of our family. It would be great too, since the P2,000 would be a great help to other shelter dogs so that they can find a home and feel loved, like we loved Mafia and Roval.

I left my cellphone at my parent’s place (dang it), so I wasn’t able to text my sister and my brother’s family about this idea, but I’m hoping that they’ll like this idea. They might say that 2k is a pretty hefty price, but I’m sure that the 2k would be well worth it.

Anyway, there’s a pile of tissues here by my keyboard, and it’s full of snot and tears. Delayed grief sure hits hard. T_T

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An Aunt’s Pride

Yep! I am so proud of my nephew! XD

I told you guys already about how we had a Photowalk in Ninoy Aquino Parks and Wildlife in Quezon City.

What I didn’t tell you is that my nephew won 2nd place in our Photo Challenge!

Me so proud! I almost had a heart attack because I was so happy! Maybe I should consider bringing a medical computer cart to check my vitals during photowalks. XD

I’ve been giving my nephew several lessons on how to shoot using his father’s DSLR, and my good ol’ Point and Shoot, and I’m happy to see that he’s doing great. So great, in fact, that I lost to him that day, having only 1 vote. XD

But hey, I’m just happy to see that he’s a great photographer, and that he has an eye for photography. I’ve encouraged him to keep at it, and hopefully, he’ll be a better photographer than I am.

Keep up the good work, dude! When we have another photowalk, I’ll make sure to bring you along again!

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I recently went to Pampanga for Kuya James’ wedding.

Clearly, not one of my best shots of the event, but it was good. XD

Weddings are great events for practicing photographers like me. But… I don’t know, it made me a little sad, I guess. I don’t know why.

But I was very happy for my Kuya James of course. I think I’m happy for anyone who is about to be married… specially if they really love each other.

I don’t know, I guess it’s my single girl genes kicking. I’ve been single for so long that marriage seems like a very far thing for me… which is a little good I guess. Since I have some more priorities to settle before even thinking about marriage.

But anyway, congrats to my awesome Kuya James, and his wife, Lyra. ^_^v

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The Vanishing Island?

Well, I guess you could call it that. It’s such a teeny, tiny island that I doubt handheld garmin gps couldn’t find it.

This is actually a very small island off the coast of Sta. Cruz, Marinduque, when my mother and I visited Palomaria Beach during the Holy Week.

It’s about the size of 2 buses, and I called it “Vanishing” because it sinks during the high tide. When we visited this island, it was already high tide, and the water reached up to my knees. A few moments before this photograph, a group of people pitched up a beach umbrella because they thought it was an actual island. Boy, where they shocked when they saw that the tide was rising. As it turned out, the owner of the boat they rented was pretty much a joker. Luckily, the family that stayed there were a pretty fun bunch, and had a good laugh at the joke. XD

I’m hoping I could come here again with my sister, I think she would really enjoy this. XD

By the way, woman with a hat and an orange scarf is my mother. She actually enjoyed walking around the island. ^_^

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Junior-Senior Proms

Whew… I am soooooooo E – X- hausted!

2 days of pure fun and well…. hard labor. It’s a miracle I didn’t lose as much weight as a person who takes the best diet pills from the amount of sweat I had. XD

It started out last Friday, where I accompanied my sister-in-law and her friend to an event that they hosted at the Marikina Convention Center. It was actually the Junior-Senior Prom of the Parang National High School in Marikina. I, actually had a lot of fun doing it, mainly because it reminded me of my own JS Prom.

Everybody looked all so handsome and pretty that they wanted to have their picture taken with the photo booth that my sis-in-law set up. It was hard work, but it was good. Unfortunately, by the end of the night, I had shouted and talked so much that well… I ended up losing my voice. ~_~

Anyway, it was a great night for everyone, and I was happy that I became a part of the lovely memories that they had that night.

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