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Bellydance Career? I Think Not.

No, I am not ready for professional bellydance, I think.

I’ve had three performances already. The 1st one on my mother’s birthday, the 2nd one on my gym’s Christmas Party, and the third one on my office’s Christmas Party.

And after all that, I have come to the conclusion that I am not ready for professional bellydance. XD

Don’t get me wrong, I love dancing. There is something about hearing the music out of the home theater speakers that make me just want to move, even though I might not move very well. It’s actually a great feeling. It’s like everything blacks out and all that’s with you is the music.

But still, I am not in par of other bellydancers. I have way, WAAAAAY lot more stuff to learn. I still haven’t mastered my zills, I haven’t done veils and veil pois and sword balancing… I can’t even do Rachel’s backbend. ~_~

I still have a lot of training and practice to do. I just hope my teacher at the gym would be more than happy to teach me. I think I’m really passionate about bellydance. ^_^

By the way, just in case you guys didn’t know, I’ve had 2 bellydance videos in YouTube. Click here to view my YouTube profile and see what other stuff I have in there. XD

0 Comment(s) - What do you think?  Posted by ZenkX - January 16, 2012 at 10:39 pm

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Origin of the “Blood Whales”

Yeah, it’s dumb thing… but I’m going to tell you about the “blood whales”…

Which is actually a part of a “series” of dreams that I’ve been having for the last few months. I have no idea how it popped up during my sleep, but… it did.

Anyway, so one of the main things I hate is having zombie dreams. And I get zombie dreams so often that it’s turning into a a TV-show like series when I sleep… kind of like watching TV while you sleep. O_o

Imagine, if you will, yours truly… traveling with a bunch of friends in a zombie apocalypse, with my brother driving all around town in my father’s Pajero with polaris ranger parts, running over zombies that look strangely like Nemesis from Resident Evil, except slower. Food was running low, so was gas, and we were looking for weapons since bullets are also running low.

We come across a building, which was ruined after the zombie infection reached people in aeroplanes, causing them to crash. I was with 5 people (strangely enough, it included my bestfriend Joyce, my officemate Carlo, my friend in Mandaluyong Cleto, my sister Lelai, and my cousin Jeffrey O_o), and we were in what looked like a store of weapons (if you know the shop Mumbakki, you’ll understand XD). I found a couple of swords and I was looking for my sister to give her one, when we heard this noise.

If you’ve heard the Siren in Silent Hill, it sounds just like that. If not, PLAY SILENT HILL.

Anyway, so this siren sounds right? And we stood on alert, waiting for zombies, but no zombies came. But as I looked, something red dripped on my sister’s forehead and I looked up.

There, on the sky, were the “blood whales”. They weren’t REAL whales, but like these animated, cartoony whales with a wide grin on their faces. They were dripping blood all around us, and Carlo, unfortunately, got a drop or two in his mouth.

“Spit it out! It contains the zombie virus!” Dream Cleto said in my… dream (O_o) so we tried to spit it out, but it was too late for Carlo. He turned into a ravishing zombie, and since I was the closest one to him… he bit me my neck.

And then I woke up.

Hahaha! Weird, ain’t it? I told it to Joyce (the real life one) and she laughed because it was the freakiest dream she ever heard. I dunno, I guess my head is making all these crazy stuff in my dreams due to stress.

But damn them zombies and “blood whales”, I’ve missed a lot of beauty sleep because of them. I wonder what it means to have re-occuring dreams. it’s just really freaky. ~_~

Anyway, so that’s the tale of the “Blood whales” dream… It’s getting pretty late, and I still have work tomorrow, so I hope that no zombie or blood whale appears in my dreams tonight. I’m going to be so pissed if I dream of them again. ~_~

0 Comment(s) - What do you think?  Posted by ZenkX - October 20, 2011 at 11:42 pm

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Tribal Fusion Bellydance: Is It Weird…?

 

So after an awesome bellydance session at the gym, my instructor and I had a really interesting discussion about Tribal Fusion Bellydancing in the Philippines.

Apparently, TFB (the acronym I’m going to use from now on XD) isn’t very well-received in the Phil. because a lot of people think that it’s “weird” and “not really considered as bellydance”.

Hmm? Really? O_o

Personally, I think TFB is still considered bellydance, and it’s not weird at all. I mean, yeah, TFB costuming sort of makes you wear a lot of tassles, coins, scarves and other jewelry aside from your triton wedding bands, but it’s not so bad. I find it even more challenging, since your feet are pretty much rooted to the ground, so you’d have to really use your muscles to control your movement… kind of like Rachel Brice… *points to video*

In fact, my “blood whale” dreams are weirder than TFB… which will be discussed in another time. XD

Anyway…. my instructor said there are actually very few people who do TFB, particularly in her circle of bellydance friends. I hope someone would expose the beauty of TFB to the Philippines.

Or better yet, maybe I should do it… hahahaha! Just kidding! XD

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Zenkx Against Cyberbullying

Man, the internet today is both an awesome and annoying thing, specially when it comes to things like bullying. ~_~

Just recently, I saw an episode of “If You Really Knew Me”, which addresses the modern concerns of High School students in the US, specially when it comes to “stereotyping”, where in students are seemingly grouped according to what the school society thinks them to be. They can be jocks, cheerleaders, nerds, outcasts, etc.

One of the thing that hit me during that show was about cyberbullying, or abusing someone’s well-being through digital means like texting, or through posts in FaceBook, MySpace or in their own personal blogs.

I find it really interesting and … disturbing, to think that these teenagers are practically ruining someone’s life by the words they say through the use of the InterNet and cellphones.

There was once a time when I was bullied in high school… way before texting was a fad. My friends were what they called nerds or outcasts, but I loved them, not because they are strange or anything, but because they were genuinely fun and really cool. My best friend, Joyce has been my friend since high school. And we had went through a lot of shit together from the bullies. We had chairs and books thrown at us. Joyce, particularly, being the smartest, was always pressured into doing someone else’s homework. She was called thin, and I was called weirdo. I had the biggest breasts in class, and they often picked at me because of it. Some went too far as to date me just to touch my breast for a bet.

I had… a bad time in high school, but it was Joyce, and my other friends, Beth, Juddee, Mary Jane, Joseph Ickx and Ericco who made me strong enough to not let a blade touch my wrist, because it would make them sad. When we were bullied, Beth would defend us, being a black belter in karate, and when we got so angry we would go out and hang at the mall, or sometimes in my house, where we would talk about things. It… made me really appreciate them and love them.

But now… it’s just scary. You don’t need physical contact just to be bullied by someone. Heck, you could be in the same school but not know each other until someone posts something awful about you.

I’ve heard about news of teenagers killing themselves because someone made an awful rumor about them… like them being gay, or fat, or weird, or being falsely accused of being something that they are not. As one who went through that ordeal and was able to not do it, I just wish that this kind of thing would stop happening. Life is too fun, and great and awesome, to be tainted by such false accusations. I wish kids who went through the same, and probably worse, scenario like mine would have the strength to stand up, and know that just because they called you something, doesn’t mean you have to be.

Watching all this… it is making me regret that I didn’t look into counselor careers or get a master degree in psychology. I just wish there was something I could do to make teenagers and people learn something about cyberbullying, and how it’s affecting people not just in schools, but even outside of it like in workplaces. ~_~

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PnSers.com

Yep, I’m a member of the  Point and Shooters Community Forum now. ^_^v

Mainly because I need to work on how to shoot with my camera…

For those of you who don’t know, PnSers.com is actually a site made by my blogging master, geri, as well as his friends to bring together different Point And Shoot camera users together to participate in photowalks and other events. They also help amateurs (like me ~_~) in taking great photos with digital cameras.

Most of my pictures are taken with my sister’s Nikon CoolPix L20… it’s an okay camera, but I have problems about how to handle it and how to use the different settings. I’m hoping I can learn a lot from them and participate in their photowalks soon. XD

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hibaRaks!!!

Oh, greatness… thy name is Hiba! XD

Yep, this girl is proof that you can still be an awesome bellydancer even though you’re fluffy (unlike me, who keeps visiting weightlossdietpills.net to find out how I can lose weight).

She’s no Rachel Brice… but damn! She’s good. I just hope I had her confidence when dancing. XD

I can never seem to get rid of my confidence issues. I don’t know, it’s probably just me. I guess I’m not really too cool with letting my jiggly bits wobble.

But Hiba… man, she’s just really awesome! Her dancing is great, her hair is great, and her costume is awesome.

I wonder what decade will I be able to be like that? ~_~

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The Great 741 Million Pesos Lottory Win

Yep, somebody just had themselves a Very (10,000) Merry Christmas, because the Philippine Charity Sweepstakes had just confirmed that the 741.176 Million Peso Jackpot Prize was won by a lone bettor.

Geeze, talk about getting the ultimate payday advance. And right on time for the holidays, too.

Oh man, and here I was hoping that it would be my mother. Hahaha!

P741 million pesos… sheesh, that is a heck lot of money. I just hope that whoever won it would be very discreet when it comes to financing the money. A lot of people out there are going to come after them, that’s for sure. ~_~

I wonder what would happen if I won that much money? Hmm… I’d probably donate some of it to the library I work in, buy my own house, give the 5 members of my family a car, pay for my nephew’s college fund, pay for my mom and sister’s hospital bills, and ask my dad to retire. But as for me, there is no way in hell I’m going to retire even if I won that much money. I like what I do way too much. XD

Anyway, so to the very, very lucky and fortunate person who won the money, CONGRATULATIONS! XD

As for me, I’m keepin’ my fingers crossed. Harharhar. Maybe I should start betting as well… XD

0 Comment(s) - What do you think?  Posted by ZenkX - November 30, 2010 at 11:10 pm

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Of my 45-things-to-do-before-I-die list…

A couple of years ago, during my really, really despressing days as a unemployed lady (XD), I watched Mandy Moore’s movie “A Walk to Remember”. And I really didn’t care much about the movie (sorry, not much into romantic movies), but there is, however, one thing that I remembered.

The girl had a list, a rather short list, of things she wanted to do before she died. And in the movie, the couple did as much of the things on her list before she really died of leukemia. And it made me think. I don’t think that only dying people should have a list like this. Eveybody should have one. It’s one way to know your true goals, and to enjoy your life to the fullest.

So I made this list and posted in my previous Blog (read “It’s My Mouth And I’ll Say Anything I Want With It” from the links). It’s been only about 2 years since I posted this, but still… STILL only a few things have been checked.

I’m posting this here as a review of sorts… so that I can see which ones I still miss and need to achieve… XD

ZenkX’s 45 Things I Want to Do Before I Die
(the ones in Italic are the stuff I have done already)

45. Get a permanent tattoo
44. get a tongue peircing
43. Color my hair red… PERMANENTLY…
42. Sleep for 24 hours straight
41. Walk in three inch stilletto heels without tripping
40. Own a complete set of the Vampire Chronicles
39. Own a complete set of the Lord of the Rings
38. Own a complete set of Harry Potter
37. Eat half a pizza for myself
36. Drink tequila or margarita til I’m punch drunk
35. Own a Puggle (that’s a dog that’s half Pug, half Beagle)
34. Have my own room
33. Design & sew my own wardrobe
32. Meet Gerard Way of My Chemical Romance
31. Meet Elijah Wood
30. Meet John Cena
29. Meet J. K. Rowling
28. Make my own flash animation
27. Cook a drool-worthy adobo
26. Learn how to dance like Shakira (well, I know some stuff XD)
25. Own an Evenstar necklace
24. Visit Cairo Museum in Egypt
23. Learn to sing like Leah Salonga
22. Play Aerith’s Theme on the piano
21. Play Spanish Romance on the guitar
20. Learn to speak Japanese properly
19. Get a full body massage from a hunky guy (ooooohhhhh….)
18. Own knee-high stilletto boots
17. Meet or write a letter to Rachel Brice (This used to be Dan Radcliffe, but since my obsession with bellydance, I kinda changed it)
16. Get a reply from Rachel Brice
15. Go to Enchanted Kingdom & play the whole day!
14. Get on & fly in an airplane
13. Have Fergie’s (from BEP) figure… (this is starting to look like an impossibility XD)
12. Learn how to play hockey
11. Get married…
10. Have kids… just two, mind you…
9. Have long hair again!!!
8. Write tons of novels
7. Voice an anime character
6. Meet Robin Leigh Andersen ( my foreign friend)
5. Make a famous anime w/ Joyce (me being the script writer…)
4. Go to a Metallica or My Chemical Romance concert
3. Meet and hang out with Metallica!
2. Swim with dolphins
1. Experience Anti- gravity…

Well, this kinda sucks. Only 5 things from this list are finished…

Maybe I should get that permanent tattoo soon… heehee, time to look for good tattoo designs! XD

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Of my 45-things-to-do-before-I-die list…

A couple of years ago, during my really, really despressing days as a unemployed lady (XD), I watched Mandy Moore’s movie “A Walk to Remember”. And I really didn’t care much about the movie (sorry, not much into romantic movies), but there is, however, one thing that I remembered.

The girl had a list, a rather short list, of things she wanted to do before she died. And in the movie, the couple did as much of the things on her list before she really died of leukemia. And it made me think. I don’t think that only dying people should have a list like this. Eveybody should have one. It’s one way to know your true goals, and to enjoy your life to the fullest.

So I made this list and posted in my previous Blog (read “It’s My Mouth And I’ll Say Anything I Want With It” from the links). It’s been only about 2 years since I posted this, but still… STILL only a few things have been checked.

I’m posting this here as a review of sorts… so that I can see which ones I still miss and need to achieve… XD

ZenkX’s 45 Things I Want to Do Before I Die
(the ones in Italic are the stuff I have done already)

45. Get a permanent tattoo
44. get a tongue peircing
43. Color my hair red… PERMANENTLY…
42. Sleep for 24 hours straight
41. Walk in three inch stilletto heels without tripping
40. Own a complete set of the Vampire Chronicles
39. Own a complete set of the Lord of the Rings
38. Own a complete set of Harry Potter
37. Eat half a pizza for myself
36. Drink tequila or margarita til I’m punch drunk
35. Own a Puggle (that’s a dog that’s half Pug, half Beagle)
34. Have my own room
33. Design & sew my own wardrobe
32. Meet Gerard Way of My Chemical Romance
31. Meet Elijah Wood
30. Meet John Cena
29. Meet J. K. Rowling
28. Make my own flash animation
27. Cook a drool-worthy adobo
26. Learn how to dance like Shakira (well, I know some stuff XD)
25. Own an Evenstar necklace
24. Visit Cairo Museum in Egypt
23. Learn to sing like Leah Salonga
22. Play Aerith’s Theme on the piano
21. Play Spanish Romance on the guitar
20. Learn to speak Japanese properly
19. Get a full body massage from a hunky guy (ooooohhhhh….)
18. Own knee-high stilletto boots
17. Meet or write a letter to Rachel Brice (This used to be Dan Radcliffe, but since my obsession with bellydance, I kinda changed it)
16. Get a reply from Rachel Brice
15. Go to Enchanted Kingdom & play the whole day!
14. Get on & fly in an airplane
13. Have Fergie’s (from BEP) figure… (this is starting to look like an impossibility XD)
12. Learn how to play hockey
11. Get married…
10. Have kids… just two, mind you…
9. Have long hair again!!!
8. Write tons of novels
7. Voice an anime character
6. Meet Robin Leigh Andersen ( my foreign friend)
5. Make a famous anime w/ Joyce (me being the script writer…)
4. Go to a Metallica or My Chemical Romance concert
3. Meet and hang out with Metallica!
2. Swim with dolphins
1. Experience Anti- gravity…

Well, this kinda sucks. Only 5 things from this list are finished…

Maybe I should get that permanent tattoo soon… heehee, time to look for good tattoo designs! XD

0 Comment(s) - What do you think?  Posted by ZenkX - at 7:16 am

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