adulthood

Another Regret

I am beginning to regret one of my decisions again.

I’m regretting the fact that I didn’t take a lab coats and enrolled up in the Medical Technology course in college, as my mother did.

A recent news about my father’s health made me realize that this is probably the biggest decision that I regret. I didn’t become a nurse, or a doctor, or even a Lab Technician… anything related to the medical field that could probably help my parents in the long run. Stupid of me. ~_~

But, I do realize that it’s too late to do that now. I’d have to make with what I have right now and help whatever I can. My sister, God bless her, is an awesome nurse… perhaps one of the best nurses that her hospital has. I am confident that she can help my parents better than I can.

I am not as confident as my sister is, though. What can a librarian do to help in a person’s health? Sometimes I even think that my work seems so insignificant that if I left or quit in my current job, everything would be just the same.

Haiz. Or perhaps I am thinking too negatively.

Now is not the time to be negative. I have to do what I can to help my parents, however little it may seem. Maybe as a librarian, I can do research and find out more about how to take care of my parents. Yes, perhaps that’s the thing I can do…

I Suck At Volleyball

I really do.

In case you guys don’t know, I’ve been recently recruited into a volleyball team in my workplace. Which is a big surprise. ~_~

I played volleyball a long time ago in high school for my year level team, but I doubt it was added in my yearbook’s Graduation Photo Announcements, since I sucked at it. I can’t even serve properly… I’d end up hitting an outside hit, or the ball doesn’t even reach the net. >_<

Anyway, I heard that weight training helps with volleyball. Hopefully, all my gym effort works…

But… I think I might need to focus on my serving first. Anyone out there who wants to be my trainer? T_T

The Origin of Planking

So where exactly did it start?

A lot of people are actually beginning to ask where the fad of “planking” (otherwise known as “the lying down game”) actually started. It’s a game where someone lies down flat on a certain surface… like in a table or even on a streetlight, and having their picture taken like they’re some sort of human Halloween decorations.

So, where exactly did it start? And who the heck started it? A lot of people says it started around the 2000, but actually started way longer than that.

Planking was actually “created” by the American prankster, Tom Green, way back in 1994, as an experiment to see who would actually “help” him to see if he was injured.

Support AThinLine.org, Stop Cyberbullying

This… was pretty much some part of my life in high school, except for the fact that FaceBook or networking sites were still non-existent then. We had to take insults like this right into our faces, and in my case, etched in the boy’s bathroom. ~_~

Still continuing on to the cyberbullying issue, I came across this video while I was looking to compare life insurance. It’s about A Thin Line.Org, which is a website and a program by MTV that deals with cyberbullying, sexting, and other abuses that occurs in schools nowadays.

It’s actually a really, really great program, that I wish would be implemented in schools, colleges and even workplaces here in the Philippines. Being the texting capital in Asia, cyberbullying is pretty much just as prevalent here as it is in the US.  Probably just as worse, since I see articles of suicides by teenagers in the newspapers.

It’s scary to think that us, the older generation, are letting these things happen. There are still no laws against all forms of bullying, and there are a lot of schools, particularly here in the Philippines, that do not have anti-bullying policies. Things like the ones happening in this video should never happen to anyone in real life. ~_~

Anyway, calling to politicians, mind you that we need laws against cyberbullying and other forms of abuse through digital means, because believe it or not, THIS *points to video* is happening here too. ~_~

Zenkx Against Cyberbullying

Man, the internet today is both an awesome and annoying thing, specially when it comes to things like bullying. ~_~

Just recently, I saw an episode of “If You Really Knew Me”, which addresses the modern concerns of High School students in the US, specially when it comes to “stereotyping”, where in students are seemingly grouped according to what the school society thinks them to be. They can be jocks, cheerleaders, nerds, outcasts, etc.

One of the thing that hit me during that show was about cyberbullying, or abusing someone’s well-being through digital means like texting, or through posts in FaceBook, MySpace or in their own personal blogs.

I find it really interesting and … disturbing, to think that these teenagers are practically ruining someone’s life by the words they say through the use of the InterNet and cellphones.

There was once a time when I was bullied in high school… way before texting was a fad. My friends were what they called nerds or outcasts, but I loved them, not because they are strange or anything, but because they were genuinely fun and really cool. My best friend, Joyce has been my friend since high school. And we had went through a lot of shit together from the bullies. We had chairs and books thrown at us. Joyce, particularly, being the smartest, was always pressured into doing someone else’s homework. She was called thin, and I was called weirdo. I had the biggest breasts in class, and they often picked at me because of it. Some went too far as to date me just to touch my breast for a bet.

I had… a bad time in high school, but it was Joyce, and my other friends, Beth, Juddee, Mary Jane, Joseph Ickx and Ericco who made me strong enough to not let a blade touch my wrist, because it would make them sad. When we were bullied, Beth would defend us, being a black belter in karate, and when we got so angry we would go out and hang at the mall, or sometimes in my house, where we would talk about things. It… made me really appreciate them and love them.

But now… it’s just scary. You don’t need physical contact just to be bullied by someone. Heck, you could be in the same school but not know each other until someone posts something awful about you.

I’ve heard about news of teenagers killing themselves because someone made an awful rumor about them… like them being gay, or fat, or weird, or being falsely accused of being something that they are not. As one who went through that ordeal and was able to not do it, I just wish that this kind of thing would stop happening. Life is too fun, and great and awesome, to be tainted by such false accusations. I wish kids who went through the same, and probably worse, scenario like mine would have the strength to stand up, and know that just because they called you something, doesn’t mean you have to be.

Watching all this… it is making me regret that I didn’t look into counselor careers or get a master degree in psychology. I just wish there was something I could do to make teenagers and people learn something about cyberbullying, and how it’s affecting people not just in schools, but even outside of it like in workplaces. ~_~

Wall of Memories

I want one of these in my “future house” (if I get any XD).

But instead of using photo frames, I’ll be using the best netbooks and iPads. It’ll show my family pictures, and there would be one giant screen that shows all my photography pictures (even the ones that sucked)!!!

Awww man, that would be so WICKED!

Although I’m pretty sure that with all the developing technology happening right now, this kind of dream would become a reality. Sure, I don’t have an iPad yet (can someone sponsor me an iPad? XD), and I don’t even have a house of my own, but by 10 years or so, I’m pretty sure some other houses would have this. The big question is, will I be able to do it. XD

Anyway, pictures on photo frames and mounted on the wall is still pretty cool. I’d love to have some in my room. Unfortunately, it’s full of posters, I wouldn’t know where to put the pictures. Harharhar! ^_^v

The Future Photographer?

Actually, that’s my nephew who has recently been into photography. He is so awesome.

And he’s so grown up! Sheesh! One of these days, I’m going to have to buy him some new parish clothing… he’s reaching my height already. ~_~

I took this photo when we ate out after his Elementary graduation. Sheeesh. The kid is in high school already… I can still remember when he was two years old, when we were sitting at the front seat of my mother’s car, singing “Eyes On Me” by Faye Wong while we waited for her to finish her shopping. Those were the days. T_T

He’s growing up way too fast for me. It makes me feel so old. XD

But, I’m still a bit happy, especially since I was able to teach him some photography. I actually envy him a bit, since he can use his parents’ Canon DSLR camera when he’s taking pictures. I hope he can harness his skills in photography, I could tell he has the eyes for it. Maybe when he reaches the proper age, I can be bring him to our photo walks.

Hmm… a 12-year old kid, capturing photos with a DSLR camera borrowed from his parent… it kind of reminds me of me when I was still using my dad’s SLR camera fifteen years ago. It kind of made me envious that he can use the DSLR, but then again, I have my own Point and Shoot camera that has yet to fail me. Hahaha. Besides, like my friends used to say, “it’s not the bow, it’s the Indian.” XD

ZenkX: The Pre-Nup Photographer???

Yep, it’s my sister’s doing. ~_~

My dear beloved sis is planning to get married this year, and she’s hoping to get me and one of my cousins as their Pre-Nuptial photographers.

And it will include some garden and beach scenes complete with garden flags and swing sets and everything…

I never really thought about using my photography for something like Pre-Nups. Quite honestly, I only take pictures for the heck of it. I’m not really into using it for business. I just like taking pictures of nice things and making sure that they’d be preserved in my photos. ~_~

Besides, I don’t think my camera is properly geared to take Pre-Nup photos yet. Harhar.

Geeze, I need some serious saving up if I’m going to do this. I need some serious camera gears. ~_~

Roval And Me

I was watching “Marley And Me” a few moments ago, and it made me cry again. ~_~

Like serious-waterworks-from-the-eyes kind of crying.

Maybe because it’s because I miss my old German Shepherd, Roval, who died 4 years ago.

He was such an awesome dog, although he was quite a pain in the butt to walk, just like Marley. He would run, and chase cats and bark at other dogs that we were passing by. I mean, for those who ever owned like big dogs, you understand what I’m talking about. XD

But walking him, for me, was quite therapeutic. Sure, he was a dog, but whenever I sit down for a moment to rest and think things through, he was there sitting beside me. I’d talk about stuff, and even though I don’t know if he’d ever understand me, he was there looking at me with those puppy-dog eyes that made me feel like everything was going to be alright.

Anyway, I just miss having a dog again. My mom forbids it now, ever since Roval and one of our other dogs, Porkchop, died of diseases in an animal hospital.

I need a new pet. Maybe I should start thinking about keeping fish in my room. XD

Nephie’s Birthday!!!

Yep, it’s my nephew’s birthday today. Whooooo! *ala Rick Flair* He’s turning 12 today. Which is pretty cool. He grows up so fast. XD

Actually, it kind of sucks a little, because it’s his birthdays that makes me feel older, rather than my own birthdays. I’m pretty sure he’s going to be 18 pretty quickly, which I dread, because by that time I’d around my thirties. Argh!

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, NEPHEW! ^_^v